Friday, August 12, 2011

ual orientation confusion..?

All my life up until about 16 I remember I was very straight. I had a crush on one girl for about 7 years, always was to females and had no reason to question my uality. I was watching Patton the movie one day, and admiring the strength of the general, I noticed he read the bible a lot so I wanted to read it to. I was reading the bible a lot in the coming days, really into it. I then started getting a part where it was listing sins. I then started going through the list of sins and questioning myself whether i was guilty or not...I would think on each one, and then decide no. Then I came to the sin of ity, and i cant remember exactly but after questioning myself i started to worry, and felt bad. I almost fell into a state of depression, but shook it off. After that i started questioning whether guys who I admired was actually more than admiration and was constantly checking myself to see if i was by guys or not, worrying all the time....

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